“To change skins, and evolve into new cycles, I feel one has to learn to discard. If one changes internally, one should not continue to live with the same objects. They reflect one’s mind and the psyche of yesterday.”

"White knuckles and sweaty palms from hanging on too tight

Clenched shut jaw, I've got another headache again tonight

Eyes on fire, eyes on fire, and they burn from all the tears

I've been crying, I've been crying, I've been dying over you

Tie a knot in the rope, tryin' to hold, tryin' to hold,

But there's nothing to grasp so I let go

I think I've finally had enough, I think I maybe think too much

I think this might be it for us (blow me one last kiss)

You think I'm just too serious, I think you're full of shit

My head is spinning so (blow me one last kiss)

I think that life's too short for this, I want back my ignorance and bliss

I think I've had enough of this, blow me one last kiss.

I won't miss all of the fighting that we always did,

Take it in, I mean what I say when I say there is nothing left

No more sick whiskey dick, no more battles for me

You'll be calling a trick, 'cause you'll no longer sleep

I'll dress nice, I'll look good, I'll go dancing alone

I will laugh, I'll get drunk, I'll take somebody home

I will do what I please, anything that I want

I will breathe, I will breathe, I won't worry at all

You will pay for your sins, you'll be sorry my dear

All the lies, all the why's, will all be crystal clear"

My heart wishes so many things...  I loved you so very dearly and would walk to the ends of the earth.  I wonder what fates next crossroads are my dark angel?

A change needed, not quite the least destructive way to accomplish that.  A blind force delivered by Punks.  There were unfortunate casualties, although their lose in my life has been minimal.  But today.. I took The Kid to the aquarium.  Bloody fantastic!  He saw it all, his eyes wide and mouth hanging open he got his first real look at fish.  

Sharks and Monkeys and dolphins, oh my.

He has wonder in his soul, a combo that actually works in this relationship.  I had such a good time, and appreciated that 5 years ago I couldn't imagine a child, let alone a more peaceful mind.  The poet challanges that and I'm getting tired.  He maddens like the Caterpillar yet scurries and teases like the Rabbit.  This Alice needs to play with The Kid, to help him to navigate Wonderland.  

The dolphin came to me last April, when I was 5 months pregnant.  We spent moments looking at each other.

He came to see The Kid yesterday.  

Captured forever.  

A lust for life.

 A most amazing thing has happened.  A dream I didn't know I had, till it presented itself.  The Poet has left quite an imprint in my life, he showed me how to love as I never have before.  For the first time I ran free with life & heart, willing to take whatever consequenses came with these actions.  

Zigbot

I was scared throughout the whole 9 months of living a true human life, doing what woman since the beginning of man have done.  What an awkward and breathtaking year.

The time had come with the cliche of labour starting in the middle of the night.  Shhh quite baby.
I'm not sure if I'm ready...

 

Hello Nathaniel Parker James  aka.. Natebot

For 5 1/2 months, I have been amazed by him...