I'm up and I"m down! Constant.  

He vented tonight, 

I"m glad I'm his confidant... 

he should never have to filter to me.  

Not about the important things.  

But it was hard to not take some responsibility, 

or just question that my showing up was worth it to him? 
Is this what he felt like when I broke down 

about home in Edmonton?  

Car, debt, friendships, people I put out, mental health challenges.  Debt remaining.  

My issues here aren't in comparison to his, 

I could only imagine his frustration right now.
All of these, were my choices.  

There is a small hope that he looks at this 

and knows for a fact 

that I believe in him and us. 

Do I regret anything?  

One thing, upsetting the heterosexual life partner 

with her bday surprise.

                               
                                   Would I do it again?  Without a doubt! 

Without a thought?  In a heartbeat.

I've fallen in love with a man that excites the soul, 

calms the skin & loves so grandly.  

Isn't That worth the world?  

Worth everything? 

It's what we all dream of.