Another great tune from the heterosexual life partner. Another song that touches the soul, lyrics that fit perfectly to different times of life. I knew this song was going to be a fav when I recognized the lyrics on her facebook page. Field of trees... this was followed by a bizarre argument between her friends. One of them from my manic past. Someone who, at times, continues to instill an anger so deep, it scares my soul. This petty antagonism left me satisfied. "We've all been changed from what we were." Seems like such an angry person now. Not the person I knew. I feel comforted by that.
I wonder if I would want to start again. Which part of life would be the beginning point for this transformation? I know I would change how I feel. Getting tired of being "sick". I just spent two weeks in a safe place for people that are unsafe. Access to RN's, meds and food easily accesable, being that the regular functions of life become so damn difficult. It was a place I needed for a few days. A responsibility to my loved ones.. keep myself safe. There were no life altering epiphanies but a chance to regain good habits. To colour.. to fill my life with music once again. I left this place feeling confused about my future. Where the next step is. Did the bipolar make me sick, or am I making myself sick trying to re-enter my life where it left off? Question after question...
Slow the mind, with a cigarette... outside a hospital door.
Pull the blindfold down
So your eyes can’t see
Now run as fast as you can
Through this field of trees
Say goodbye to everyone
You have ever known
You are not gonna see them ever again
I can’t shake this feeling I’ve got
My dirty hands, have I been in the wars?
The saddest thing that I’d ever seen
Were smokers outside the hospital doors
Someone turn me around
Can I start this again?
How can we wear our smiles
With our mouths wide shut
‘Cause you stopped us from singin’
I can’t shake this feeling I’ve got
My dirty hands, have I been in the wars?
The saddest thing that I’d ever seen
Were smokers outside the hospital doors
Someone turn me around
Can I start this again?
Now someone turn us around
Can we start this again?
We’ve all been changed
From what we were
Our broken parts
Left smashed off the floor
I can’t believe you
If I can’t hear you
I can’t believe you
If I can’t hear you
We’ve all been changed
From what we were
Our broken parts
Smashed off the floor
We’ve all been changed
From what we were
Our broken parts
Smashed off the floor
Someone turn me around
(We’ve all been changed from what we were)
Can I start this again?
(Our broken parts smashed off the floor)
Now someone turn us around
(We’ve all been changed from what we were)
Can we start this again?
(Our broken parts smashed off the floor)
-Editors
