What do I think of this whole god damn thing?

I must write
I cannot write
I want to write
I should write
I'm afraid to write

I have nothing to say in this racing mind. Attention distracted. What?

I am self loathing
I am pity
I live by fear
I judge in disguise
I cry in frustration
I hate by habit

So today I write. Crosslegged, music in ears & pen in hand

Scream if you want to...

Erin how I love to hate you.

James - Blue October

Kneel down
Close your eyes
hit the ground
I want you to, to kneel all day
alone in this desolate cave
So I said
Scream if you want to
'cause no, no one is around
I want you to
To scream all day
Cause there's eleven words that I've rehearsed to say

And I say
how, how, how How I love to hate you!

you you you you

You're,
not so brave
When I'm the snake
And you're my prey
Let me tell you I'll, I'll eat all day
Alone in this desolate cave
So I say
Squeal if you want to
Cos no
no one is around
I want you to
To squeal all day
Cause there's eleven words that I've rehearsed to say

And I say
how, how, how How I love to hate you!

you you you you

James, how I love to hate you

And I say
how, how, how How I love to hate you!