I'm sorry for the way I treated you
I'm stuck in my ways to just run
In the opposite way when things get comfortable
I'll keep on licking till your flavor is gone

It's getting more impossible
To keep a straight face
And be trusted with
I love you

Don't trust my words when I'm in the bed with you
I'll bring the message, but the message gets lost
Yeah you opened your legs and maybe
I promised you
You didin't notice that my ankles were crossed

Can you show me how to treat someone?
I don't recall ever learning how
Because I keep fucking up
I keep fucking up

Sexual Powertrip (One Big Lie) - Blue October

I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But i remember everything
What have i become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone i know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of shit
On my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have i become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone i know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If i could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Hurt - NIN

What do I think of this whole god damn thing?

I must write
I cannot write
I want to write
I should write
I'm afraid to write

I have nothing to say in this racing mind. Attention distracted. What?

I am self loathing
I am pity
I live by fear
I judge in disguise
I cry in frustration
I hate by habit

So today I write. Crosslegged, music in ears & pen in hand

Scream if you want to...

Erin how I love to hate you.

James - Blue October

Kneel down
Close your eyes
hit the ground
I want you to, to kneel all day
alone in this desolate cave
So I said
Scream if you want to
'cause no, no one is around
I want you to
To scream all day
Cause there's eleven words that I've rehearsed to say

And I say
how, how, how How I love to hate you!

you you you you

You're,
not so brave
When I'm the snake
And you're my prey
Let me tell you I'll, I'll eat all day
Alone in this desolate cave
So I say
Squeal if you want to
Cos no
no one is around
I want you to
To squeal all day
Cause there's eleven words that I've rehearsed to say

And I say
how, how, how How I love to hate you!

you you you you

James, how I love to hate you

And I say
how, how, how How I love to hate you!