The past has come back. A past I used to fear, and now.......

The rabbit found me, he has always been there. He showed himself to me in a park, when I was still innocent. And he now he lead me to a land of dust, only to run off for a "very important date".

Which rabbit hole do I leap into next? How do I put all this in words?

My Boys..... how I loath and love you.

You let me violate you...
you let me desecrate you.
You let me penetrate you...
you let me complicate you.
Help me I broke apart my insides,
help me I’ve got no soul to sell
Help me the only thing that works for me,
help me get away from myself

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

You can have my isolation,
you can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith,
you can have my everything

Help me tear down my reason,
help me its' your sex I can smell
Help me you make me perfect,
help me become somebody else

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

Closer
NIN

A question, a choice, or a memory...
The fates wrapping themselves around
the lines of these souls.
Would you question your desire?
Let the fates guild your choice?
Or would you fall into their mist and dance
within memories?
An eternity in a moment, flash... and gone.
Your choice of fates await, in the web...
...lace in your blackest of hearts...
again you chose your descent.

...and then call it fate.

Created by DM&ED

Get Down With the Sickness - Disturbed

Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing in me

Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes
There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon in me

Get up, come on get down with the sickness

Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me

It seems you're having some trouble
In dealing with these changes
Living with these changes
The world is a scary place
Now that you've woken up the demon in me

Get up, Come on get down with the sickness

(And when I dream)
No mommy, don't do it again
Don't do it again
I'll be a good boy
I'll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don't hit me
Why did you have to hit me like that, mommy?
Don't do it, you're hurting me
Why did you have to be such a bitch
Why don't you,
Why don't you just fuck off and die
Why can't you just fuck off and die
Why can't you just leave here and die
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
How would you like to see how it feels mommy
Here it comes, get ready to die

Get up, come on get down with the sickness

Madness has now come over me