Pain. Alot of pain. Betrayal at its best.

I have bipolar. I am learning all I can, taking whatever help they give me. I have a real chance at a more content life. I'm tired of being so angry all the time, so pissed off at the world. Being bipolar lets you release the guilt and the hatred. My responsibility to my friends and family?
To learn as much as I can, and to change the behaviour.

Now it has been brought to my attention that the soulmate thinks I'm a liar. Wow...I tricked 3 MD's into certifying me and 3 psychiatrists to diagnosis me. I defiantly need to be on TV!

I have been betrayed.

Could you forgive someone that calls you a liar.....says your whole life, darkest feelings and all is an attention grab. Well I know bipolar is about extremes.... And I'm sure I could keep trying to prove myself to this said soulmate....blood records for 2 years now...and I don't think they give fakers Lithium.

But hey...an uneducated RN must know. Perhaps I should let my 5 working RN's know that some chick in Alberta thinks I'm faking.

I never imagined such ignorance.

Perhaps she was just an hallucination of mania.

Soulmate
Stephanie L.
RIP

Is this how the world views mental illness? Should I not advocate? Oh wait...that just might be me trying to get attention for it. You want is Soulmate, you can have it, attention and all.

I think of the day this soulmate realizes how wrong she really is...I just hope this evil that has taken her over releases her, before she loses all her spirit. My friend is gone...but my journey is going to take me to great places..lets go heterosexual life partner, that is if you don't mind a faker.