"Stop thinking and feel".

Advice from a professional. Hmmm. And what if you don't trust yourself. What if you spent your life being told that "feelings" are uncomfortable and messy, and they never get you anywhere in life. Think..that is what you have to do...think. Never trust your heart only your mind. And your mind can talk your heart out of anything.

After 29 years of this...my heart is closed. My mind is the only thing that brings me comfort.

"Today I found my friends, in my head" Lithium - Nirvana.

Creativity is hard when you over think it. So I opened my heart, just a bit...to become this photographer I fancy myself to be. Perfect example of the struggle... A lab, precisely measured elements to maintain focus, or someone can be hurt. It is all about thought...routine...being the best..at ALL times. That is my job. My dream? To fly, to make love, to create at all hours....to have the world fall in love with my eyes. To create that passion with a photo, and to hopefully have others see what I so desperately try to show.

Constant struggle between feeling and thinking. Don't feel to much at the "job", it can destroy you. And don't "think" about art, you can destroy it.

Feel don't think....a dangerous thing this "professional" asks of me.