I think I found my most perfect “sitting” spot. A beautiful setting, trees that are over a hundred years old, providing you with an umbrella of shade. The backdrop? An old 1912 building, with perhaps a bit of a sinister history, which brings out the uniqueness of the area. There are some locals you need to avoid, but you end up feeling so relaxed and comfortable.





Inspiration flows there, the history of the place helps induce mindful thoughts. For those who know where I’m talking about, just may be laughing their asses off at that comment.

Sitting there, letting my mind wander, I thought back to when I was younger. The way I had looked at the world, how I saw intimacy or sex, how I interacted with people and how I thought of myself. Growing up, you put those ideas away, think it’s a learning curve and battle society with how they say you should think of the world as an adult.

I fought it most of the way, experiencing things for myself, always being a bit “unique”. But unfortunately I folded when it came to some situations felt that I was in the wrong and should fit nicely into an acceptable mold. Tried that mold and have discovered, it’s just not me.

How I viewed certain things, are coming back into my conscience now. Felt guilty for it and tried to squash it, but I keep coming back to the realization that some things don’t change, and maybe they shouldn’t. You can’t feel guilty for feeling that way, just reevaluate it for this stage in life, and carry on. If there is one in this life you have to be true to, it’s yourself.


If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.

Bye, bye, its been a sweet love.
Though this feeling I can't change.
But please don't take it badly,
'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you'll never change.
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Lord help me, I can't change.

Freebird – Lynyrd Skynyrd